I'm so stupid!

One of the things I actually like about living in a small town is that no matter where you move to you're never that far away from your best friends. In fact my best friend lives only about 5 houses up the road from me. But when I lost my cellphone a couple of months ago I also lost touch with her. I don't even remember the last time I saw or talked to her. I'm sure she tried to text me and gave up when nothing came back. When I got my home phone hooked up a few days ago I thought about calling her. But stupid me feels I can't just call after not getting a hold of her for such a long time. I miss her so badly. I miss going to shoppers with her trying out stuff and giggling. And I miss watching Grey's with her. It's not nearly as much fun without her. So tonight I'm going to call her anyway and see what happens.

I hope she can forgive me for being such a flake. When she really deserves so much better. But I do love her and I'm sure she knows that.